Monday, March 5, 2012

Parkinson's Disease Is Closing In On Me

There are certain mornings, in that instant between sleep and awareness, right as the brain haze is starting to lift and consciousness is setting in for the day, that I feel the most normal.  But, this is only for a fleeting moment and in no time I revert back to the old status quo.

Parkinson's Disease is closing in on me and I am starting to sense small setbacks in areas of my life that once were so strong and solid.  The newest adversary without question is anxiety.  This uneasiness of the mind, or fear of some contingency, create big problems out of small ones, and small problems out of things that used to be nonexistent.

The 'what if's' spawn the greatest amounts of anxiety.  This causes one to worry about things that may need not be worried about at all.  But isn't this normal?  Don't people in good health face the same challenges?  If so, then maybe the ability to cope with these contingencies allow for a more a normal lifestyle.

So once again, isn't it the brain's ability to process this uneasiness that set it on the proper path towards good mental health? 

Maybe the old adage is true, 'it is not what happens to you, but how you react to it that matters most'. 


Suzie Chandler said...

Wow, Jeff I certainly understand!! I thought I was the only person who felt anxiety!! I will continue to pray for you!! Great seeing you at Christmas...we MUST do it again!!

Paul Anderson said...

Saying "hang in there" doesn't cut I won't...just saying...been thinking of you...just had knee surgery again...this time on my "good knee", it was the only one one I had left. Alot of anxiety there..not recovering as quickly as I used to from it.
Keep fightin' dammit! (much better than the aformentioned H-I-T)

Russ Styles said...

No worries Jeff you are not alone! Anxiety affects a large majority of Americans as we age. As if we already don't have enough to deal with eh cuz?

Mariodacatsmom said...

Hi, I also have Parkinson's, but haven't quite reached that stage yet, but I'll be alerted to it. Some of those feelings are normal, as I've had them happen in the past - long before being diagnosed PD. I sometimes have trouble separating what is normal and what is related to PD. Are you on an antidepressant? If not, it might be a good thing to ask your doctor about. It does help to take the edge off.

Lori said...

Love u buddy. WE all face anxiety and it is a very scary feeling. Hang in there deep breaths. U can beat this feeling. Love u !!!